As I ramble through the space called ‘My mind’ I am amazed
at the unknowns I find in these dark caves.
To give you an example; on one occasion i was fighting to
defend the world from an invasion, on one side from Americans and on the other
side Russians. My heart kept telling me the Americans were right but something deep
within that heart told me it was the Russians.
A dilemma if ever there was one.
This mind space I am travelling through is complex and not
always rational. As I turned one corner it was full of Americans eating burgers
and moms apple pie. Around the another corner were Russians drinking vodka and
dancing the “Hopak," or the
"gopak".
It might surprise you
but these are the same dance, where the Russian soldiers kick their legs into
the air.
Imagine me telling these they should go home quietly.
Can you see the Russians handing up their vodka or the
Americans surrendering their burgers, I don’t think so.
In this piece my mind is saying little, leaving it all to my
heart, but believe me, my mind can talk when it wants to. I often wonder which is
worse, my mind or heart talking. I just wish they would shut up and leave me
alone.
Is there an author out there who could write me a new heart
and while they are at it, a new mind with less lip.
My mind space is a challenge, full of riots and I often wish
I could leave it at home.
My heart caught me off guard here, talking me into entering
‘my mind space’ at a time when this was going on. I would prefer to stay at
home vegetating. My heart doesn’t seem to understand that I can’t change the
world.
Does it really want me to walk up to the Americans or the
Russians and say, look lads the others are right,
I am not the hero my mind seems to think I am, will it ever
cop on and let me live a peaceful existence, alone without any heroic thoughts
or dreams.
JC-Dublin-A City with space to ramble